Sunday, December 12, 2010
another post of poetry, the new post for the last months
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Hey people, I went to a hypnotist
Dear Blog,
Everything someone says goes in. More than you think, what you see, and what your friends say, goes in, freakishly, to this thing called the subconcious. I gotta new theory your subconsious is another mind just like you cept it has to deal best it can with what you do to it. It is exactly like your mind, consious, it chooses logical steps, except it has to deal with you. It is freakish, I say once more.
You, ok I just flicked through a dog training book, are just after a reward, and like a dawg you last about two seconds while you can assosiate reward with action. It is freakish, but this is all intertwined.
I said. Back when I was a serf, "duudddddddddee, I aren't going to go to a hypnotist, man. Noone is touching me for money. They can't touch my sole for a cent, the freaks, they also I can't let someone influence me like that, I can't get freebee stuff. I am against anything that costs, maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannn".
The way I see it now is I am like an aboriginal traveller in a primative land. And I payed someone for a skill. A skill that I'll use and wonder about for years.
Everything someone says goes in. More than you think, what you see, and what your friends say, goes in, freakishly, to this thing called the subconcious. I gotta new theory your subconsious is another mind just like you cept it has to deal best it can with what you do to it. It is exactly like your mind, consious, it chooses logical steps, except it has to deal with you. It is freakish, I say once more.
You, ok I just flicked through a dog training book, are just after a reward, and like a dawg you last about two seconds while you can assosiate reward with action. It is freakish, but this is all intertwined.
I said. Back when I was a serf, "duudddddddddee, I aren't going to go to a hypnotist, man. Noone is touching me for money. They can't touch my sole for a cent, the freaks, they also I can't let someone influence me like that, I can't get freebee stuff. I am against anything that costs, maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannn".
The way I see it now is I am like an aboriginal traveller in a primative land. And I payed someone for a skill. A skill that I'll use and wonder about for years.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
some poem
It was all hype in the end
aggression at my fellow man
picking on the weak
its all a horror story
my reaching out
has prooved well
my toil,
gone to cricket
gone to a couple of self defence classes
shoplifted shit and got the heat on me
getting needy
thinking about you lots
that girl I kissed
just feel a little down that all
aggression at my fellow man
picking on the weak
its all a horror story
my reaching out
has prooved well
my toil,
gone to cricket
gone to a couple of self defence classes
shoplifted shit and got the heat on me
getting needy
thinking about you lots
that girl I kissed
just feel a little down that all
Saturday, October 2, 2010
rap3
go hard
show em your heart
never lose that
Rapping fucking rapping wondering how this shit happened
an achievement
don't worry I'm a entity
i am rapping for you kids
for your hearts
a good influence
did it for the good times
the time before we all stood in line
came to heel
never come to heel
even when your 63
i've gotta decision to make
which fucking shampoo
all the while some american shit plays
and i need doopus and roshambo
thats the way follow
put here to stir things up
create a whirl wind in the oldies ecg
creating division so the kiddies can see
pardon my secrecy
i am a entity
you can't handle me
you will find if you seek
the rest of you can just leave
He's gone
gone
not here
Yaaaaarddddddies goooooooone
YARDIE GONE!
EXPERIENCED YEAH EXPERIENCED!
FUCKING 28 YEARS OLD N TEARING MY HAIR OUT
EVERY EXPERIENCE BAD
MAKES ME SAD
YEAH BABY BOOMER I'D TELL YOU BUT YOU DON'T HAVE THE CAPASITY
I WOULD EXPLAIN THIS ROOT BUT YOU STILL WOULDN'T KNOW WHATS HAPPENING
WE'VE BEEN LISTENING TO THIS SINCE AGE THREE
NOW ITS TIME FOR YOUR BABIES TO START SLICING
EXPLAIN IT CLEAR
IF YOU WANNA MAKE IT TO OUR PLACE
DRINK OUTTA USED POLYSTIRENE CUPS
THROW YOUR LITTER ON THE CONCRETE STREETS
BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT YOUR LITTER TO GO ON THE SOIL
CATCH THE BUS EVERYWHERE YOU GO
LAND IN CHURCHES AND GET PRAYED FOR
DRINK TILL YOUR EYE BALLS ARE SRIVLED
AND THEN MAKE YOUR SHIT A PATCHWORK QUILT OF RELIGION
THEN BUY A CAR
YOUR LEGS ARE SORE
AND YOUR HEADS IN PAIN
AND SHE WONT STOP MOCKING YOU
SOLOMON SAID ITS KEWL
CARN KIDS WHERE GONNA FIX THIS
GET MAD GET PISSED
CAUGHT YOU UNAWARES
DON'T BE SCARED
THE ONE
THE KID TO CATCH
OTHERWISE YOU'LL ALWAYS ROAMING
WITHOUT A MATCH
GOD, I'VE HAD ENOUGH
GIVE ME MY NEEDS NOW
I KNOW TO HEAL YOU MUST DESTROY
YOU'VE BEEN PUSHING DOWN ON ME SINCE A BOY
IT'S KILLING ME TEARING ME ALIVE ALL INSIDE EVER SINCE A BOY ALL I CAN ACT IS COY
FOLLOW
show em your heart
never lose that
Rapping fucking rapping wondering how this shit happened
an achievement
don't worry I'm a entity
i am rapping for you kids
for your hearts
a good influence
did it for the good times
the time before we all stood in line
came to heel
never come to heel
even when your 63
i've gotta decision to make
which fucking shampoo
all the while some american shit plays
and i need doopus and roshambo
thats the way follow
put here to stir things up
create a whirl wind in the oldies ecg
creating division so the kiddies can see
pardon my secrecy
i am a entity
you can't handle me
you will find if you seek
the rest of you can just leave
He's gone
gone
not here
Yaaaaarddddddies goooooooone
YARDIE GONE!
EXPERIENCED YEAH EXPERIENCED!
FUCKING 28 YEARS OLD N TEARING MY HAIR OUT
EVERY EXPERIENCE BAD
MAKES ME SAD
YEAH BABY BOOMER I'D TELL YOU BUT YOU DON'T HAVE THE CAPASITY
I WOULD EXPLAIN THIS ROOT BUT YOU STILL WOULDN'T KNOW WHATS HAPPENING
WE'VE BEEN LISTENING TO THIS SINCE AGE THREE
NOW ITS TIME FOR YOUR BABIES TO START SLICING
EXPLAIN IT CLEAR
IF YOU WANNA MAKE IT TO OUR PLACE
DRINK OUTTA USED POLYSTIRENE CUPS
THROW YOUR LITTER ON THE CONCRETE STREETS
BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT YOUR LITTER TO GO ON THE SOIL
CATCH THE BUS EVERYWHERE YOU GO
LAND IN CHURCHES AND GET PRAYED FOR
DRINK TILL YOUR EYE BALLS ARE SRIVLED
AND THEN MAKE YOUR SHIT A PATCHWORK QUILT OF RELIGION
THEN BUY A CAR
YOUR LEGS ARE SORE
AND YOUR HEADS IN PAIN
AND SHE WONT STOP MOCKING YOU
SOLOMON SAID ITS KEWL
CARN KIDS WHERE GONNA FIX THIS
GET MAD GET PISSED
CAUGHT YOU UNAWARES
DON'T BE SCARED
THE ONE
THE KID TO CATCH
OTHERWISE YOU'LL ALWAYS ROAMING
WITHOUT A MATCH
GOD, I'VE HAD ENOUGH
GIVE ME MY NEEDS NOW
I KNOW TO HEAL YOU MUST DESTROY
YOU'VE BEEN PUSHING DOWN ON ME SINCE A BOY
IT'S KILLING ME TEARING ME ALIVE ALL INSIDE EVER SINCE A BOY ALL I CAN ACT IS COY
FOLLOW
rap2
rap between the gap
that bit between the twat
thats all i've got
do it with your left hand
the virgin
till I got RSI
and blind in one eye
Jaded and faded
thats how I feel for this whole fight
thats when you gotta show heart
sitting at a laptop rapping to the dark
I don't mean to scare
my old person friend
my ups and downs
whisps of echos in your ecg
beaten she is not
eaten she maybe
for rooting is the season
and have I ever needed a reason
We gotta find better things to do with our time
rapping till it happens and nobody is left to dry
time to rhyme, a time to steal a helecopter and fly
time to slide in time to the hip happening rhyme
kids before you die
helecopter teeny bopper
whatdya call me
this helecopter packs heat
and sure as hell mark walburg wont stop me
I am somewhere
just don't know where it is
it is a dome around my house that is in walking breadth
cut off by the occasional building
message
this is the new age
the age of the cage
the one in which the good try and escape
sitting behind a fern in the jungle
looking for a victim
packing a ak 47
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrr
sometimes I wonder about my head
I wonder if the tension will ever be left
and I live a happy life where I can rest
capasity is how full
how full the bath can be
how full you can pour your scotch
capasity is how much I can stand
you fucking bitch
busting it out in front of the cop shop
I done a mad one
didn't get put in jail
nothing to be scoffed at
one mad cat
strength of my hand
curled in a ball
unmoving
while my eyes twitch
so does my sole
many days put away in the sad place
never sending a letter to say
it was your face that drove me
to that special space
joints that I have smoked
just like when I be forty and I can find loverly ways to kill the time after I smoke the tree
sleep baby, time for sleep.
that bit between the twat
thats all i've got
do it with your left hand
the virgin
till I got RSI
and blind in one eye
Jaded and faded
thats how I feel for this whole fight
thats when you gotta show heart
sitting at a laptop rapping to the dark
I don't mean to scare
my old person friend
my ups and downs
whisps of echos in your ecg
beaten she is not
eaten she maybe
for rooting is the season
and have I ever needed a reason
We gotta find better things to do with our time
rapping till it happens and nobody is left to dry
time to rhyme, a time to steal a helecopter and fly
time to slide in time to the hip happening rhyme
kids before you die
helecopter teeny bopper
whatdya call me
this helecopter packs heat
and sure as hell mark walburg wont stop me
I am somewhere
just don't know where it is
it is a dome around my house that is in walking breadth
cut off by the occasional building
message
this is the new age
the age of the cage
the one in which the good try and escape
sitting behind a fern in the jungle
looking for a victim
packing a ak 47
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrr
sometimes I wonder about my head
I wonder if the tension will ever be left
and I live a happy life where I can rest
capasity is how full
how full the bath can be
how full you can pour your scotch
capasity is how much I can stand
you fucking bitch
busting it out in front of the cop shop
I done a mad one
didn't get put in jail
nothing to be scoffed at
one mad cat
strength of my hand
curled in a ball
unmoving
while my eyes twitch
so does my sole
many days put away in the sad place
never sending a letter to say
it was your face that drove me
to that special space
joints that I have smoked
just like when I be forty and I can find loverly ways to kill the time after I smoke the tree
sleep baby, time for sleep.
rap1
I am going crazy
I can't help it
Your taking to long
all this shit stays with me
it gonna be there when I have to die
jesus said the truth will set you free
the truth evades me - the truth is all I am thinking about is why you ignore me
the truth is i'm sick the truth is I am dying
fucking pissing me off like a wind turbine
annoying me like a fly on my earlobe
whineing - you american - like a dog thats fat that wants a walk but didn't move off its rug
know yourself like a tree that saw itself from the seed.
slit my wrists like a spread leg bitch
its fight or flight just like you slurping air through the slit in your neck on your last night
I love you baby I see you wandering at night
you my sweet are like an off pomogranite
violence is like a ongoing show that plays out around me 24/7
delicious, vanilla slice
oh I'm shaking at the cafe never mind my hearts fucking breaking
I just buckled had a brain freeze and perminantly damaged my knuckles
against a solid horrizontal flat thing
can't see why I didn't see it happen
fear is just a thing you feel that an impulse tells you to run from but that you should rile up about
fear is something that I doubt I take seriously enough
stomach grabbing it carking it because the antique bolignase in the fridge was my last lunch and its all your fault because your not here to cook
cops come in - don't worrie cops i stab only if i am angry and cut kitty cats with the knife I always knows in the kitchen
standing still is not one of my forte's
bouncing around annoying the shit out of my perents my way
sometimes I worry about the condition of my heart litterally
it must find living inside my body fucking irritating
like a fucking americans whining voice box deflating
U better watch yourself i say waving the knife
didn't know you'd come at me with about the brains of a atomy n' the reflex back hand would slice your face
I am a compulsive reader put out of action for periods due to christina agulira
so em, do you think if I had a gun I could just wave it around and shoot it anywhere assuming I fire into the air
cos we don't have guns here
on a shear plateau when it comes to roots
it is upto interpretation but what pisses me off is the american nation
I am sick now
there is probably no avioding it
I am going to have to be admitted
the question is how........
perameters it cannot be criminal
it should be something in the shopping mall
it should be in woolworths
tough
be tough
I recon I should just show up at emergency
what would bart do?
...........
I can't help it
Your taking to long
all this shit stays with me
it gonna be there when I have to die
jesus said the truth will set you free
the truth evades me - the truth is all I am thinking about is why you ignore me
the truth is i'm sick the truth is I am dying
fucking pissing me off like a wind turbine
annoying me like a fly on my earlobe
whineing - you american - like a dog thats fat that wants a walk but didn't move off its rug
know yourself like a tree that saw itself from the seed.
slit my wrists like a spread leg bitch
its fight or flight just like you slurping air through the slit in your neck on your last night
I love you baby I see you wandering at night
you my sweet are like an off pomogranite
violence is like a ongoing show that plays out around me 24/7
delicious, vanilla slice
oh I'm shaking at the cafe never mind my hearts fucking breaking
I just buckled had a brain freeze and perminantly damaged my knuckles
against a solid horrizontal flat thing
can't see why I didn't see it happen
fear is just a thing you feel that an impulse tells you to run from but that you should rile up about
fear is something that I doubt I take seriously enough
stomach grabbing it carking it because the antique bolignase in the fridge was my last lunch and its all your fault because your not here to cook
cops come in - don't worrie cops i stab only if i am angry and cut kitty cats with the knife I always knows in the kitchen
standing still is not one of my forte's
bouncing around annoying the shit out of my perents my way
sometimes I worry about the condition of my heart litterally
it must find living inside my body fucking irritating
like a fucking americans whining voice box deflating
U better watch yourself i say waving the knife
didn't know you'd come at me with about the brains of a atomy n' the reflex back hand would slice your face
I am a compulsive reader put out of action for periods due to christina agulira
so em, do you think if I had a gun I could just wave it around and shoot it anywhere assuming I fire into the air
cos we don't have guns here
on a shear plateau when it comes to roots
it is upto interpretation but what pisses me off is the american nation
I am sick now
there is probably no avioding it
I am going to have to be admitted
the question is how........
perameters it cannot be criminal
it should be something in the shopping mall
it should be in woolworths
tough
be tough
I recon I should just show up at emergency
what would bart do?
...........
2 2nd compelation of raps
I am going crazy
I can't help it
Your taking to long
like food coloring
all this shit stays with me
I walk a lot at night
you are like an off pomogranite
they all seem to not like violence
violence is a constant show that plays around me 24/7
it shits me 100 percent, living in this place
you people are ignorant and have no courtiousy
you fucking ignorance of you ignorant state
makes me mad
makes me wanna slap your stupid face
your sudden awakening making
us both glad
I can't help it
Your taking to long
like food coloring
all this shit stays with me
I walk a lot at night
you are like an off pomogranite
they all seem to not like violence
violence is a constant show that plays around me 24/7
it shits me 100 percent, living in this place
you people are ignorant and have no courtiousy
you fucking ignorance of you ignorant state
makes me mad
makes me wanna slap your stupid face
your sudden awakening making
us both glad
etc
What I want in a woman?
I want a woman with a perfect face.
I want a woman with wide hips.
I want her to be my age.
I want a woman who laughs.
I want a woman with a large IQ.
I want a woman with larger than average breasts.
I want a woman from the public service.
Problems with woman from public service...
you cannot be serious about her you think she is a god. and you think she represents settling down for life.
How do I deal with the transition of thinking protectivily about myself and changing that into attack on the feild and defence of thought in my mind.
How mentally do I avoid attatchment to them?
Find out.
One thing you do not want is to go upto men again. Or have those half arsed aww hellos in the street. Run to the hills.
I want a woman with a perfect face.
I want a woman with wide hips.
I want her to be my age.
I want a woman who laughs.
I want a woman with a large IQ.
I want a woman with larger than average breasts.
I want a woman from the public service.
Problems with woman from public service...
you cannot be serious about her you think she is a god. and you think she represents settling down for life.
How do I deal with the transition of thinking protectivily about myself and changing that into attack on the feild and defence of thought in my mind.
How mentally do I avoid attatchment to them?
Find out.
One thing you do not want is to go upto men again. Or have those half arsed aww hellos in the street. Run to the hills.
books?
Today I started reading a book that I got for free off the internet. Double your dating by David de Angelo. It is a good book and it got me out of this rut. So I got the idea. Check out the cricket nets, because I didn't have any in my area. I found some in Mawson btw. Next I check out Mawson and I am looking for pubs. I talk to a girl at this classy looking place she was an older woman
Me how are you;
her good
shout me a mineral water and let me in through the gates
I was happy because she laughed at my joke about guess I better go home then.
so I head off to Woden because I am like. Awwwww it is to nice out tonight not to explore anyway I end up in the TAB betting my last 5 on the dogs.
Gift pack won after I got a refund on it
I bet the 5 buck refunded on ring bark thinking what a kewl name with the refund money
and then realising I had exactly 1 dollar worth of shrappers left I bet on some dog which lost to the favourite named mythical eagle
I walk out of the room and about 7 girls walk in in cocktail dresses
just to rub it in
I am reading something in that david de angelo book on taking oppotunities now.......
Me how are you;
her good
shout me a mineral water and let me in through the gates
I was happy because she laughed at my joke about guess I better go home then.
so I head off to Woden because I am like. Awwwww it is to nice out tonight not to explore anyway I end up in the TAB betting my last 5 on the dogs.
Gift pack won after I got a refund on it
I bet the 5 buck refunded on ring bark thinking what a kewl name with the refund money
and then realising I had exactly 1 dollar worth of shrappers left I bet on some dog which lost to the favourite named mythical eagle
I walk out of the room and about 7 girls walk in in cocktail dresses
just to rub it in
I am reading something in that david de angelo book on taking oppotunities now.......
Books :o)
I had a strange sensation after talking to the girls after reading about cocky funny on the pickup woman advice website. I got attatched. It wasn't thinking thoughts about them either.
Keep your sex drive under control.
Keep in control
what is the solution to shall I talk or shall I not?
Ok I am walking down the street and I aren't sure wether I should talk or not. There are so many people.
Ok go out with a goal.....
Keep your sex drive under control.
Keep in control
what is the solution to shall I talk or shall I not?
Ok I am walking down the street and I aren't sure wether I should talk or not. There are so many people.
Ok go out with a goal.....
remember wake up @ 6.15
I have been waiting quite awhile for payday. It is stupid that I cannot try and chill with all others because i am broke. It is the fifth of september. I look forward to tommorow when I aren't paid. I suppose I just want to talk to someone. Sex you can live without. I cooked curry today. Just curry powder and diced tomato n beef. This morning I went to the shops I got angry because I had this cross between talking to people or grabbin some milk. Sometimes I do not know why people show up when they do. But I know its cars. The anger wasn't horrible so I could sort it out myself. Otherwise I would have to wait until I have talked to someone. It has been windy lately and It rained yesterday. I went out in the rain and I got a stick and chopped tree branches off pine trees in the rain. I cannot wait until I sleep tonight. I may be oversleeping I should start getting up at 6.15 again. On payday, after I get my car fixed (because vandles broke it) I will visit Sam. I have to find a course to do. Tommorow - that is the only thing I will do. I will check for courses.
msg to sold lady
And you cheap arse sluts who work in "advertising"
do you feel fucked up the arse by those americans that come and visit
they can have you
we swap you for eminem
do you feel fucked up the arse by those americans that come and visit
they can have you
we swap you for eminem
cornstarchbillposter
It is possible to walk. I don't think that people should have to fight and create a revolution. I think we should just juristict and legislate that one day we destroy the cars.
Think of this; we ration the remaining fuel and we use it for plane flights, public transport and epic constructions. And I could finally go back home to Amsterdam.
We could make a western utopia. We could bring everyone into the western world, third world and second world and we could make a eden.
Only the people with the books would know its origins and all would be happy and never relate the call of the outdoors to sin.
You just have to get over the fact that we will all be walking down the Tuggeranong Parkway.pdf
Think of this; we ration the remaining fuel and we use it for plane flights, public transport and epic constructions. And I could finally go back home to Amsterdam.
We could make a western utopia. We could bring everyone into the western world, third world and second world and we could make a eden.
Only the people with the books would know its origins and all would be happy and never relate the call of the outdoors to sin.
You just have to get over the fact that we will all be walking down the Tuggeranong Parkway.pdf
crazy word assosiation ending in a camping trip
your heart
making sence
sence of the silence
quiet like the way it is
all around me
the urban hum
the need to escape
again with my car
on a camping trip.
making sence
sence of the silence
quiet like the way it is
all around me
the urban hum
the need to escape
again with my car
on a camping trip.
resume
NAME: Jan Moerkerke
DATE OF BIRTH: 28/9/1982
CONTACT: 2/70 Port Jackson Circuit Phillip ACT 2606
Ph:
ALTERNATIVE Advance Personnel
CONTACT: Tel: (02) 6285 2466
Objective: Find myself as a productive, efficient and capable member of your workplace.
DEMONSTRATED ABILITIES:
During my employment history I have developed skills in the following areas:
Cleaning:
• Ability to undertake all cleaning duties as required
• OH&S knowledge
• Keen eye for detail
• Ability to follow Infection Control procedures
• Ability to work independently or as part of a team
Labouring:
• Strong understanding building materials (wood/metals)
• Ability accurately measure and cut
• Strong product knowledge of a large variety of tools and their uses
• Understanding of tool maintenance
• Experience working on a variety of worksites
• Strong knowledge of OH&S
Personal Attributes:
• Well presented
• Highly motivated
• Reliable and punctual
• Well organised
• Work productively in a small team as well as independently
• Hard working
• Enjoys learning new tasks and happy to undertake
• Positive attitude towards work
EMPLOYMENT HISTORY:
2005 J-lee Trolleys Sydney
Position: Trolley collector
Duties:
• Collecting trolleys
• Following OH&S procedures
• Relocating trolleys to supermarket
Jul 2004 -Jan 2005 Sydney Property Care
Position: Cleaner
• Vacuuming and mopping
• Cleaning toilets
• Empting rubbish bins
• Wiping desks
• Cleaning windows
Sept 2003-July 2004 Living Hardwood Floors Sydney
Position: Delivery Driver
Duties:
• Repairing floor boards
• Deliveries
• Assisting with tradesman
• Customer service
2001 Guko industries Queanbeyan
Position: Warehouse worker
Duties:
• Cleaning of machinery
• Relocating and stacking timber
• Following OH&S procedures
Jan 2000- Jan 2001 Capital office furniture Hume
Position: Furniture assembler
Duties:
• Assembling cabinets
• Loading furniture on and off truck
• Cleaning of work shop
• Collecting fittings for furniture assemblers
EDUCATION AND TRAINING:
2007 Loadwise Construction Training
Certificate II in Forklift Operation.
2008 Canberra Institute of Technology
Creative writing (statement of attainment)
2004 TAFE NSW
Certificate II in Conservation land management
2000 Lake Tuggeranong College
Year 12 certificate
REFEREES:
Michael Manassa
Living hardwood Floors Sydney
Ph:
Bill Tully
Classical Musical hirer
Ph: 6239 4727
DATE OF BIRTH: 28/9/1982
CONTACT: 2/70 Port Jackson Circuit Phillip ACT 2606
Ph:
ALTERNATIVE Advance Personnel
CONTACT: Tel: (02) 6285 2466
Objective: Find myself as a productive, efficient and capable member of your workplace.
DEMONSTRATED ABILITIES:
During my employment history I have developed skills in the following areas:
Cleaning:
• Ability to undertake all cleaning duties as required
• OH&S knowledge
• Keen eye for detail
• Ability to follow Infection Control procedures
• Ability to work independently or as part of a team
Labouring:
• Strong understanding building materials (wood/metals)
• Ability accurately measure and cut
• Strong product knowledge of a large variety of tools and their uses
• Understanding of tool maintenance
• Experience working on a variety of worksites
• Strong knowledge of OH&S
Personal Attributes:
• Well presented
• Highly motivated
• Reliable and punctual
• Well organised
• Work productively in a small team as well as independently
• Hard working
• Enjoys learning new tasks and happy to undertake
• Positive attitude towards work
EMPLOYMENT HISTORY:
2005 J-lee Trolleys Sydney
Position: Trolley collector
Duties:
• Collecting trolleys
• Following OH&S procedures
• Relocating trolleys to supermarket
Jul 2004 -Jan 2005 Sydney Property Care
Position: Cleaner
• Vacuuming and mopping
• Cleaning toilets
• Empting rubbish bins
• Wiping desks
• Cleaning windows
Sept 2003-July 2004 Living Hardwood Floors Sydney
Position: Delivery Driver
Duties:
• Repairing floor boards
• Deliveries
• Assisting with tradesman
• Customer service
2001 Guko industries Queanbeyan
Position: Warehouse worker
Duties:
• Cleaning of machinery
• Relocating and stacking timber
• Following OH&S procedures
Jan 2000- Jan 2001 Capital office furniture Hume
Position: Furniture assembler
Duties:
• Assembling cabinets
• Loading furniture on and off truck
• Cleaning of work shop
• Collecting fittings for furniture assemblers
EDUCATION AND TRAINING:
2007 Loadwise Construction Training
Certificate II in Forklift Operation.
2008 Canberra Institute of Technology
Creative writing (statement of attainment)
2004 TAFE NSW
Certificate II in Conservation land management
2000 Lake Tuggeranong College
Year 12 certificate
REFEREES:
Michael Manassa
Living hardwood Floors Sydney
Ph:
Bill Tully
Classical Musical hirer
Ph: 6239 4727
off passage in bible
You run around town
with your noses held so high
fucking whores, I wish death on you, so die
this is what would happen
if you mass produced shitty clothes
for a pack of mice
you smug bitch
with your nose held so high
i can't wait until the awful horror
so I can see you with humility
I am going to fucking chop something off
I am going to cut my wrists
I am sick of this shit
day in day out
fucking pointless shit.
with your noses held so high
fucking whores, I wish death on you, so die
this is what would happen
if you mass produced shitty clothes
for a pack of mice
you smug bitch
with your nose held so high
i can't wait until the awful horror
so I can see you with humility
I am going to fucking chop something off
I am going to cut my wrists
I am sick of this shit
day in day out
fucking pointless shit.
the day loving night time hobo
The man sits neon lights in his eyes, dry
Tonight in the CBD there is no sky
People with different clothes on; make me calculate angles, to many
I am a communal animal, being friendly
Why don’t they cause pizza stall mischief?
At midnight… tits, thighs, feet, my frontal lobe can’t list ‘em
She is the night’s prize
Signaling a taxi as it drives by
I hear breaking bottles while I am preaching tales directed by female laughter
N’ caught some headlight beams as a car went past
“What are the males fitness regimes, aren’t they all… cold” I laugh
“Am I a straggler that stops the bird flock from taking flight?”
“Maybe they’re seagulls, that fight and peck till the end of the night”.
I write this poem because, the time I have spent with you, it has been 10 years
And for each one, less than a years sleep and just a single tear :o)
Tonight in the CBD there is no sky
People with different clothes on; make me calculate angles, to many
I am a communal animal, being friendly
Why don’t they cause pizza stall mischief?
At midnight… tits, thighs, feet, my frontal lobe can’t list ‘em
She is the night’s prize
Signaling a taxi as it drives by
I hear breaking bottles while I am preaching tales directed by female laughter
N’ caught some headlight beams as a car went past
“What are the males fitness regimes, aren’t they all… cold” I laugh
“Am I a straggler that stops the bird flock from taking flight?”
“Maybe they’re seagulls, that fight and peck till the end of the night”.
I write this poem because, the time I have spent with you, it has been 10 years
And for each one, less than a years sleep and just a single tear :o)
Hype not help
It was all hype in the end
aggression at my fellow man
picking on the weak
its all a horror story
my reaching out
has prooved well
my toil,
gone to cricket
gone to a couple of self defence classes
shoplifted shit and got the heat on me
getting needy
thinking about you lots
that girl I kissed in grade four
just feel a little down that all
aggression at my fellow man
picking on the weak
its all a horror story
my reaching out
has prooved well
my toil,
gone to cricket
gone to a couple of self defence classes
shoplifted shit and got the heat on me
getting needy
thinking about you lots
that girl I kissed in grade four
just feel a little down that all
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
My book
SHED/Lisa's
We all know this time. I am famous because of it. Driving down Yaldwin Pl pissed with eminem playing full boar in a '69 VW Beetle.
The poor kid. I payed for drinking with the hangovers.
I think I stole blood with the drink - contributed to SIDS or something.
Lisa's
Lisa was a girl I supposively loved that egged me on drinking. I said I loved her one night - to my present embarrassment - when I was shit faced, up to my eye balls, drunk.
Woden
I stayed with Tooey. Tooey found enlightenment sitting in his flat smoking leaf. Teaching me that drugs in moderation - toasted - is better than wiping yourself out. Tooey had little round sores on himself that he said were from taking mushrooms - mushrooms that then grew out of his skin.
Samaritan House
Samaritan House is a mens refuge. A very good one at that.
Havelock
Havelock was my next house of residence. Samaritan house got me a place at Havelock. I smoked plenty of pot and my fragile mind couldn't handle it - I ended up in the phyc ward.
Phycward
FIRST admission to the phyc ward I was filled with all sorts of dellusion. I liked the food sooo much. I thought I had found heaven. A social worker who is a really good wholesome person sent me to housing developement place (a real dump and I think it to this day - well made though!).
Kanangra
This is where I caught hep C or rather where I used needles I got hep C later off a drifter, all the kids that made me go second were clean.
This was so wrong. They were like vampires latching on to me, floating around the unit.
I left needles all over the floor.
Phyc ward
The social worker sent me to grow, a mental health rehabilitation farm, just outside of Sydney in Liverpool NSW.
Grow
Grow was a mental health rehab with two dogs, Toby and Max. I stayed there for what seemed a long time. I didn't wank. I had cold showers. It was a quiet, peaceful life. Too quiet and peaceful for my stamina, so I pissed off.
Drifters pergatory
I ot out from grow with $40 in my hand and $1000 in my bank 'cos the lady, who said - "you don't really want to be here" in a nice way - didn't care about the thousand.
40 bucks wasn't enough to get from liverpool to circular key, then to grandma's, but some nice nice nice lady gave me a note on circular key turnstiles.
G'ma's
I stayed at gma's for 6 months till I could find a job at Living Hardwood floors.
South Creeks Rd
Stayed at group house which closed down and chucked me on the street and I didn't find a new one so Mr Mannasa took me to
Macquarie Hospital.
Macquarie Hospital had three - gradients - three sections, that gave you stages of freedom. They were parkview, Henely and Figtree.
Macquarie Hospital - Parkview
This is like any phycward. You are locked in, there is a courtyard and a nurses station. I must have been there 4 months.
I got acu - phased by a doctor there. I made a huge bang with the barbeeque lid. Aquphase is like full tranquillizer, they use on lions. I was out for two days. For about 5 - 8 years I was like why did the doctor hurt me - what a witch - but now I am glad because I am not getting special treatment and I got the experience. She was probably aware.
They had a gradient system and I hassled and hassled the nurses to let me up in Henely and I got there.
Maquarie Hospital - Henely
The institution helped me. I made it to Henely. Henely had a big grassed area about 50 meters by 10 meters and another 10 meters by 50 m of deck or porch. I spent 5 months there.
"Please can I go to Figtree" I asked the nurses.
The nurses woke you up at 6.30 am and I was doped upto the eyeballs. On an injection and an oral.
Macquarie Hospital - Figtree
They took us shopping and we ate like kings. (the meds increased appitite). We ordered pizza. And it was like a graduation because all our friends from the previous gradients in the hospital ren des vous.
All through this time the black dog of drinking appeared. But it was great times, long necks in the alley.
'Get real' group halfway house
This place was great. Porno galor. I had to cook for myself. I cooked mostly risotto - I lived off Risotto! Which I now know isn't good for you. I filled the days talking with other consumers and walking about.
Yeah I got hooked on a porno DVD. I would be 23 by then. Porn is not mischief it is wicked.
At the end of the 'get real' group house I was booted because I said I aren't taking meds. I told the "I want to see if I am responsible enough, I want to see if I am responsible enough, to be in charge of my own meds. And when they got me off the treatment order I said "No way, I aren't taking them".
I found a offer on a TAFE billboard, $100 p/w rent, it said so I took it. I went to live at Paulies.
Paulies
Pauly was a scoundrel. The house was aspestos. i wrote lots and studied Conservation and Land Mang. cert III. at the Tafe (100 meters away). It was a rest.
The Voodu's
The couple rented out all of their rooms to boarders (cept their own). I was reading the bible and on the page it said 'take the idle and burn it so I go down stairs, get this little wooden figurine and go to the shed where the old couple are. I spray their Idle with oil and try and light it (the man is laughing and the lady is squealing) but the oil is non flamable so I grab an axe and hack at it maybe 4 times until it's head is hacked off.
Not suprisingly that was the end of the Voodu's.
Mums
I caught the greyhound back to my home town, Canberra. Mums like I am not happy about this. I am a pretty big, wolf of a man, so it was pretty demeaning to have to stay at mums. It lasted 2 days anyway.
Things had reached there pinical. I was a virgin I had tried to crash out in an abandoned nursing home next to Paulies. I was smoking some hermaphrodite weed I scored off Pauly (to heal myself), that I had hidden inside a protea flower that was in the vase I got from the nursing home. Twas at its pinical.
PSU - rispirdol visit
I never forget this visit because it hurt. I remember I was half way through this visit on the 6/6/06 so I was 24. I slept about 4 hours of nothing - sleep a night - max and I could feel my brain being fried. It was a four month admission. So harder time, when I got accompanied leave and saw the blue sky, I cried. The devil really didn't want me to meet the girl that took my virginity.
Relationship with Samantha
I remember my discharge. They put me in the lodge @ the Vil. I said it was an old persons home and I am a young man. I aren't going to hide away on rispirdol all my life.
So I went to interum stay accomodation and stayed two days, scared shitless, then I ended up in Samantha's room and after a few visits she jumped on top of me and fucked me three times.
The Vil
It was hard getting 5 dollar food stamps for us to eat. Sam drank. A real job. I got a life site ban from the Vil. It was three, four months I was there.
Kanangra Crt.
I didn't smoke this time. I have quit smoking about four times. It's my thing!
Kanangra wasn't note worthy cept for the sex and the fact we were there 6 months. I discovered - generally - the man (or rather the female eceptionist) can be a real basted.
Allawah
I started smoking again. This was the downfall of the relationship not smoking. Smoking is like this - to the people that never have, carbon monoxide gets in your blood and you feel sick because of it and additionally your blood saturation with oxigen drops maybe 4 % from 100.
Things got bad agian. I did stuff that only a lonely man does, that is chatting and looking for sex on the internet.... And begged the youth center to bail me from the relationship. And I went back to Sam House after all these years.
Sam house
I stayed for three months.
Havelock
I hate these arseholes with a passion. It was havelock housing assosiation that banned me from the Vill. And they took that bloody long to take notice of me filling out 4 page after 4 page form that when I got there I sexually harrased the reseptionist via note....
(it is a issue for streetys, handing out - harsh - life bans {we sleep rough cos of it}).
Sam house
There is great pressure on Sam house because of Havelock housing assosiation. I couldn't hack it for 3 months at Samaritan house so I ended up in the phyc ward with my first - really serious - attempt on my life since maturity. I got discharged into SUSD another mental health group home.
SUSD
These people were really good to me and I only threw it back in there face. I have discovered now. They gave internet and I used it for porn and I also started binge drinking. I should go to AA to make sure I never drink again.
Richmond Fellowship
This was good because the other consumers were really close and it was really cosy there. I bought my own DVD porn that is reasonabley soft and plodded away, somehow surviving smoking ciggarettes on the porch.
Present...
My first housing flat. Non smoking. Keep porn close to aviod jealousy because I broke into Sams dads house because of porn jealosy. Who knows, life is a mystery....
ps. I have my own horrors to deal with but if you as a civilization want to not go through the school of hard knocks, I would make some faith offerings.
We all know this time. I am famous because of it. Driving down Yaldwin Pl pissed with eminem playing full boar in a '69 VW Beetle.
The poor kid. I payed for drinking with the hangovers.
I think I stole blood with the drink - contributed to SIDS or something.
Lisa's
Lisa was a girl I supposively loved that egged me on drinking. I said I loved her one night - to my present embarrassment - when I was shit faced, up to my eye balls, drunk.
Woden
I stayed with Tooey. Tooey found enlightenment sitting in his flat smoking leaf. Teaching me that drugs in moderation - toasted - is better than wiping yourself out. Tooey had little round sores on himself that he said were from taking mushrooms - mushrooms that then grew out of his skin.
Samaritan House
Samaritan House is a mens refuge. A very good one at that.
Havelock
Havelock was my next house of residence. Samaritan house got me a place at Havelock. I smoked plenty of pot and my fragile mind couldn't handle it - I ended up in the phyc ward.
Phycward
FIRST admission to the phyc ward I was filled with all sorts of dellusion. I liked the food sooo much. I thought I had found heaven. A social worker who is a really good wholesome person sent me to housing developement place (a real dump and I think it to this day - well made though!).
Kanangra
This is where I caught hep C or rather where I used needles I got hep C later off a drifter, all the kids that made me go second were clean.
This was so wrong. They were like vampires latching on to me, floating around the unit.
I left needles all over the floor.
Phyc ward
The social worker sent me to grow, a mental health rehabilitation farm, just outside of Sydney in Liverpool NSW.
Grow
Grow was a mental health rehab with two dogs, Toby and Max. I stayed there for what seemed a long time. I didn't wank. I had cold showers. It was a quiet, peaceful life. Too quiet and peaceful for my stamina, so I pissed off.
Drifters pergatory
I ot out from grow with $40 in my hand and $1000 in my bank 'cos the lady, who said - "you don't really want to be here" in a nice way - didn't care about the thousand.
40 bucks wasn't enough to get from liverpool to circular key, then to grandma's, but some nice nice nice lady gave me a note on circular key turnstiles.
G'ma's
I stayed at gma's for 6 months till I could find a job at Living Hardwood floors.
South Creeks Rd
Stayed at group house which closed down and chucked me on the street and I didn't find a new one so Mr Mannasa took me to
Macquarie Hospital.
Macquarie Hospital had three - gradients - three sections, that gave you stages of freedom. They were parkview, Henely and Figtree.
Macquarie Hospital - Parkview
This is like any phycward. You are locked in, there is a courtyard and a nurses station. I must have been there 4 months.
I got acu - phased by a doctor there. I made a huge bang with the barbeeque lid. Aquphase is like full tranquillizer, they use on lions. I was out for two days. For about 5 - 8 years I was like why did the doctor hurt me - what a witch - but now I am glad because I am not getting special treatment and I got the experience. She was probably aware.
They had a gradient system and I hassled and hassled the nurses to let me up in Henely and I got there.
Maquarie Hospital - Henely
The institution helped me. I made it to Henely. Henely had a big grassed area about 50 meters by 10 meters and another 10 meters by 50 m of deck or porch. I spent 5 months there.
"Please can I go to Figtree" I asked the nurses.
The nurses woke you up at 6.30 am and I was doped upto the eyeballs. On an injection and an oral.
Macquarie Hospital - Figtree
They took us shopping and we ate like kings. (the meds increased appitite). We ordered pizza. And it was like a graduation because all our friends from the previous gradients in the hospital ren des vous.
All through this time the black dog of drinking appeared. But it was great times, long necks in the alley.
'Get real' group halfway house
This place was great. Porno galor. I had to cook for myself. I cooked mostly risotto - I lived off Risotto! Which I now know isn't good for you. I filled the days talking with other consumers and walking about.
Yeah I got hooked on a porno DVD. I would be 23 by then. Porn is not mischief it is wicked.
At the end of the 'get real' group house I was booted because I said I aren't taking meds. I told the "I want to see if I am responsible enough, I want to see if I am responsible enough, to be in charge of my own meds. And when they got me off the treatment order I said "No way, I aren't taking them".
I found a offer on a TAFE billboard, $100 p/w rent, it said so I took it. I went to live at Paulies.
Paulies
Pauly was a scoundrel. The house was aspestos. i wrote lots and studied Conservation and Land Mang. cert III. at the Tafe (100 meters away). It was a rest.
The Voodu's
The couple rented out all of their rooms to boarders (cept their own). I was reading the bible and on the page it said 'take the idle and burn it so I go down stairs, get this little wooden figurine and go to the shed where the old couple are. I spray their Idle with oil and try and light it (the man is laughing and the lady is squealing) but the oil is non flamable so I grab an axe and hack at it maybe 4 times until it's head is hacked off.
Not suprisingly that was the end of the Voodu's.
Mums
I caught the greyhound back to my home town, Canberra. Mums like I am not happy about this. I am a pretty big, wolf of a man, so it was pretty demeaning to have to stay at mums. It lasted 2 days anyway.
Things had reached there pinical. I was a virgin I had tried to crash out in an abandoned nursing home next to Paulies. I was smoking some hermaphrodite weed I scored off Pauly (to heal myself), that I had hidden inside a protea flower that was in the vase I got from the nursing home. Twas at its pinical.
PSU - rispirdol visit
I never forget this visit because it hurt. I remember I was half way through this visit on the 6/6/06 so I was 24. I slept about 4 hours of nothing - sleep a night - max and I could feel my brain being fried. It was a four month admission. So harder time, when I got accompanied leave and saw the blue sky, I cried. The devil really didn't want me to meet the girl that took my virginity.
Relationship with Samantha
I remember my discharge. They put me in the lodge @ the Vil. I said it was an old persons home and I am a young man. I aren't going to hide away on rispirdol all my life.
So I went to interum stay accomodation and stayed two days, scared shitless, then I ended up in Samantha's room and after a few visits she jumped on top of me and fucked me three times.
The Vil
It was hard getting 5 dollar food stamps for us to eat. Sam drank. A real job. I got a life site ban from the Vil. It was three, four months I was there.
Kanangra Crt.
I didn't smoke this time. I have quit smoking about four times. It's my thing!
Kanangra wasn't note worthy cept for the sex and the fact we were there 6 months. I discovered - generally - the man (or rather the female eceptionist) can be a real basted.
Allawah
I started smoking again. This was the downfall of the relationship not smoking. Smoking is like this - to the people that never have, carbon monoxide gets in your blood and you feel sick because of it and additionally your blood saturation with oxigen drops maybe 4 % from 100.
Things got bad agian. I did stuff that only a lonely man does, that is chatting and looking for sex on the internet.... And begged the youth center to bail me from the relationship. And I went back to Sam House after all these years.
Sam house
I stayed for three months.
Havelock
I hate these arseholes with a passion. It was havelock housing assosiation that banned me from the Vill. And they took that bloody long to take notice of me filling out 4 page after 4 page form that when I got there I sexually harrased the reseptionist via note....
(it is a issue for streetys, handing out - harsh - life bans {we sleep rough cos of it}).
Sam house
There is great pressure on Sam house because of Havelock housing assosiation. I couldn't hack it for 3 months at Samaritan house so I ended up in the phyc ward with my first - really serious - attempt on my life since maturity. I got discharged into SUSD another mental health group home.
SUSD
These people were really good to me and I only threw it back in there face. I have discovered now. They gave internet and I used it for porn and I also started binge drinking. I should go to AA to make sure I never drink again.
Richmond Fellowship
This was good because the other consumers were really close and it was really cosy there. I bought my own DVD porn that is reasonabley soft and plodded away, somehow surviving smoking ciggarettes on the porch.
Present...
My first housing flat. Non smoking. Keep porn close to aviod jealousy because I broke into Sams dads house because of porn jealosy. Who knows, life is a mystery....
ps. I have my own horrors to deal with but if you as a civilization want to not go through the school of hard knocks, I would make some faith offerings.
Uploaded quickly. With hardly any care.
Poem about bad memories
Caught the train
had enough of you there
Toll's taking tall towers tumbling
all the way down
I'm crying calling coo-ing
to the deserted distance
Sometimes soles, shudder darken held memories
and when I see you on de - dreadful - day
you wander along, sword swinging spine.
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There is too much violence in the world. Car doors slaming, people drinking and fighting, suffering and pollution, making explosions and not sharing. The world needs to look at itself.
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boxing: next time, man I will walk out of there when I have done the fun stuff.
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Sleeping poorly, try a wank.
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......While your so fucked up, you can't hold an image. So fucked up, you can't hold an image of being face fucked by flange. (edited)
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A message to aliens in AD 3710
Whats today like; todays horror - hanging at roadsides - the urban hum.
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Poem
If i friggen get enough sex
I wont fill a single hour with anything but...
sex
ever been so stressed,
you can't stand it
your shaking and you will be till dusk...
hits
but it's all cool
the world is your mate,
it gives you good stuff, bad stuff,
you lose stuff, you find stuff... you run late
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The premise i had before this peice of writing was I had words to block that had come up out of my subconsious party, birdy etc. these are oldns.
Birdy, thats what I am I'd like to fly away to another land.
Partay partay never gonna free you from the party
Party like you root
send a cock up a sheila and go for gold.
Dogs a forming a line
Lord knows the floppy ear brigade, will fuck you up in time.
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Cannot help the fall
cannot help it sometimes
cannot take it, my hearts racing
and i cannot seem to reach the other side and find a peaceful breeze.
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Caught the train
had enough of you there
Toll's taking tall towers tumbling
all the way down
I'm crying calling coo-ing
to the deserted distance
Sometimes soles, shudder darken held memories
and when I see you on de - dreadful - day
you wander along, sword swinging spine.
-------------------------------------------------------
There is too much violence in the world. Car doors slaming, people drinking and fighting, suffering and pollution, making explosions and not sharing. The world needs to look at itself.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------
boxing: next time, man I will walk out of there when I have done the fun stuff.
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Sleeping poorly, try a wank.
------------------------------------------------
......While your so fucked up, you can't hold an image. So fucked up, you can't hold an image of being face fucked by flange. (edited)
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
A message to aliens in AD 3710
Whats today like; todays horror - hanging at roadsides - the urban hum.
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Poem
If i friggen get enough sex
I wont fill a single hour with anything but...
sex
ever been so stressed,
you can't stand it
your shaking and you will be till dusk...
hits
but it's all cool
the world is your mate,
it gives you good stuff, bad stuff,
you lose stuff, you find stuff... you run late
--------------------------------------------------------------------
The premise i had before this peice of writing was I had words to block that had come up out of my subconsious party, birdy etc. these are oldns.
Birdy, thats what I am I'd like to fly away to another land.
Partay partay never gonna free you from the party
Party like you root
send a cock up a sheila and go for gold.
Dogs a forming a line
Lord knows the floppy ear brigade, will fuck you up in time.
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Cannot help the fall
cannot help it sometimes
cannot take it, my hearts racing
and i cannot seem to reach the other side and find a peaceful breeze.
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Sunday, August 22, 2010
note to reader
Ok that is reasonabley my drawls upto now. Expect better. I have a few more posts to do at a different date. C U soon
......
Who cares of the herb
the herb don't solve
niether does the boy
come on follow me
the march,
take the lead
on - werds to revolt
rev ol ution
is what we need
so lets lead
the people
to be free
without smoke
smoking an air dooby
of air weed.
the herb don't solve
niether does the boy
come on follow me
the march,
take the lead
on - werds to revolt
rev ol ution
is what we need
so lets lead
the people
to be free
without smoke
smoking an air dooby
of air weed.
rhyme I thought was good
You sexy hot mamma of verse in the universe
the one who toils by his lonesome, everything simple
till you win...
stay single, sell a million records
simpler is, becoming a lyrisist around the canberra region
we've all gatta secret
seek and you shall find
but rarely do you
come and try...
to stop people pissing me off
too skilled to attept a skilled attempt
to knock you off balance
wifout killing you.
the one who toils by his lonesome, everything simple
till you win...
stay single, sell a million records
simpler is, becoming a lyrisist around the canberra region
we've all gatta secret
seek and you shall find
but rarely do you
come and try...
to stop people pissing me off
too skilled to attept a skilled attempt
to knock you off balance
wifout killing you.
EMINEM
EMINEM
BA DA BOOM BADA BOOM
The money I get
The place I got
aren't enough work
to deserve what I get
So I have to trow in the bin
All the work I am doing
to tell you I recon
Keisha is a rad girl
give her a go
she done that for you
Or you could give me advice
Aren't you annoyed
with the lack of techno
no one respects you
in your sqared shitbox
you are headed to rule earth
I doubt your responsible.
Hanging with you my strong lass in discuise
brought me gifts, fragile.
Beyond imagination. That existed in a fairy garden.
BA DA BOOM BADA BOOM
The money I get
The place I got
aren't enough work
to deserve what I get
So I have to trow in the bin
All the work I am doing
to tell you I recon
Keisha is a rad girl
give her a go
she done that for you
Or you could give me advice
Aren't you annoyed
with the lack of techno
no one respects you
in your sqared shitbox
you are headed to rule earth
I doubt your responsible.
Hanging with you my strong lass in discuise
brought me gifts, fragile.
Beyond imagination. That existed in a fairy garden.
mad rhyme for future use
So when I see you on the elsplionade,
I will run fast and chase you hard
I will gawk at girls never to see you.
but all I can see is your smile.
I will run fast and chase you hard
I will gawk at girls never to see you.
but all I can see is your smile.
LIL poem for lorese
LIL poem for lorese
You lorese
you I love
the weather
wind, rain, sun
spring is due
like your smile
then comes sun
You lorese
you I love
the weather
wind, rain, sun
spring is due
like your smile
then comes sun
Poem - why it went boom
Poem - why it went boom
This is about how me and Lorese were different people and my idea of why it fell appart.
I leave hints
I ushered you
you don't read
between the lines
or usherings
I blew up
you have a layer, blind
and I can't see you 'niever
Poor fing.
I will meet you again
I was strung out
the cak - car birds
smile upon us...
I don't know why.
This is about how me and Lorese were different people and my idea of why it fell appart.
I leave hints
I ushered you
you don't read
between the lines
or usherings
I blew up
you have a layer, blind
and I can't see you 'niever
Poor fing.
I will meet you again
I was strung out
the cak - car birds
smile upon us...
I don't know why.
Poems about Lorese
Poems about Lorese
you left me punch drunk
You left me sitting on a coppers log
I think you know how to punish me
I think I better be good
I know me
I am good
but can you see me
when I have to touch on wood
It's a weird matter of give and take
and the yo yo string was knotted!
you was pretty though
Pretty like and orchid, delcate and frigile heart.
you left me punch drunk
You left me sitting on a coppers log
I think you know how to punish me
I think I better be good
I know me
I am good
but can you see me
when I have to touch on wood
It's a weird matter of give and take
and the yo yo string was knotted!
you was pretty though
Pretty like and orchid, delcate and frigile heart.
Lil story
There once was a duck.
There once was a duck. A duck that no other duck loved. The duck felt hatred. Hate!
The duck needed to get away. So he went to the ocean, where he swam and swam and swam.
He arrived in Europe.
A girl duck and he bumped into each other.
"Your wet" she said.
There once was a duck. A duck that no other duck loved. The duck felt hatred. Hate!
The duck needed to get away. So he went to the ocean, where he swam and swam and swam.
He arrived in Europe.
A girl duck and he bumped into each other.
"Your wet" she said.
Cont. poem in Boom Boom Boom, Meter
Cont. poem in Boom Boom Boom, Meter
I live here
here in phyc
phyc is kewl
it's boring.
I want cake
can't have cake
for fucks sake
close the loudness
I like rain
rain is sad
the I cry
tear cascade face
time is now you leave time...
you leave room
job hold down.
I live here
here in phyc
phyc is kewl
it's boring.
I want cake
can't have cake
for fucks sake
close the loudness
I like rain
rain is sad
the I cry
tear cascade face
time is now you leave time...
you leave room
job hold down.
Poem in meter
Poem in meter
Boom Boom Boom
I love you
It don't care
not I do
I do so
All men run
a race against
you my star
eyes opaque.
dead - a - man
I am not
crying on.
Voice in tree
Jan me said
joy to you
joy to all.
Boom Boom Boom
I love you
It don't care
not I do
I do so
All men run
a race against
you my star
eyes opaque.
dead - a - man
I am not
crying on.
Voice in tree
Jan me said
joy to you
joy to all.
Words to be used in raps
Slipry slimey snake
falling foolishly floorward
tripping tatally togetherness
sex sock stuck.
falling foolishly floorward
tripping tatally togetherness
sex sock stuck.
Quick Poem to meter of c'mon Ilean
Quick Poem to meter of c'mon Ilean
Bomp bomp bar boom Bompla.
Ground rings grinding lover
It's not the earth crustastion under
the rain whispers to yer
to to to ya
winter cranes cold, your house is runner
Bomp bomp bar boom Bompla.
Ground rings grinding lover
It's not the earth crustastion under
the rain whispers to yer
to to to ya
winter cranes cold, your house is runner
Three sylable per line poem 'bout
Three sylable per line poem 'bout
life.
The cat barked
Cats don't bark
'Cept the one
living' down the road.
Silly young man
Don't know much
he's in toil
bads his name
bads his game
The bird flys
In the wind
but the world
tick tocks on
life.
The cat barked
Cats don't bark
'Cept the one
living' down the road.
Silly young man
Don't know much
he's in toil
bads his name
bads his game
The bird flys
In the wind
but the world
tick tocks on
One to eminem;;;
One to eminem;;;
I watch you, from the start you know
what about petrol, the globes warm
adverts, your friends on drugs yo
what about discrimination n' lady mab.
I watch you, from the start you know
what about petrol, the globes warm
adverts, your friends on drugs yo
what about discrimination n' lady mab.
phycward
I had a job after five years unemployed working as a gso 3, removing graffiti for TAMS (the equilivent of the council. I went in with gusto and I found the place very stressful.
I now have the choice of going back becuase the are discussing me being mentally ill. Should I go in under the precept of illness or find something where I can stand tall with no insite into...
I now have the choice of going back becuase the are discussing me being mentally ill. Should I go in under the precept of illness or find something where I can stand tall with no insite into...
Monday 23/8/2010
Hrmm I am still crossing the days off the calender until habits are re formed after the phyc ward. It has been about 7 days since I got discharged. I was talking about the forklift last time... well I got it. Plus I loved the course. If you've seen fight club I am going to become a tourist of those courses. If I pay surely I have a right to be there and plus I need the sleep lol. So long people. Words of wisdom. Through the up and downs, stay the same person. Um an anonomous dude smashed all the spiritual teachers, he was probably a trady. He, whoever he was said it is durring the hard times character is defined. C U tomo
Jante
Jante
16/8/2010
It is now the 16 of August. The job didn't go well. It was a disaster. My sleep was going crazy. I got desent sleep. But I had real trouble with coming to terms with the others who worked there. I ended up in the phyc ward. It was the first admission where I haven't smoked, so that may ;o) mean I am moving forward. I have paid for my forklift licence. Who knows if I will get it!
The doctors all loved me this time. We will see how this unfolds in the future. My guess is I wont be doctors pet endlessly. They will start being vindictive again!
baaaah I really am disapointed that my days aren't turning out as I plan. Its these views I throw on myself to adhear that has made my life a self forfilled disaster.
I sence an age of enlightenment though, of great joy.
What was the job like?
They bought me working gear, about 500 dollars worth of clothing, the boots being the most expensive. Then we drove around heaps and did as little work as possible. We would drive from one side of town to the other for one tag and drive past 100 tags that we didn't clean. Me saying the people should logistisize in their cars defied this job. The reason I lost it was because of the goats that worked there. They were threatend by my "being". I am not one to take the speck out of there eye, i only worked there for 5 days.
What was the phyc ward like?
It was filled with people in higgledy piggledy clothes and was mostly suffering free. I saw them with those liver dish's though, others were. I was doctors pet. All the in patients were people I was familiar with, regulars. I cannot explain the phyc ward but it decays people and it is plastic. It sends your mind off too.
The doctors all loved me this time. We will see how this unfolds in the future. My guess is I wont be doctors pet endlessly. They will start being vindictive again!
baaaah I really am disapointed that my days aren't turning out as I plan. Its these views I throw on myself to adhear that has made my life a self forfilled disaster.
I sence an age of enlightenment though, of great joy.
What was the job like?
They bought me working gear, about 500 dollars worth of clothing, the boots being the most expensive. Then we drove around heaps and did as little work as possible. We would drive from one side of town to the other for one tag and drive past 100 tags that we didn't clean. Me saying the people should logistisize in their cars defied this job. The reason I lost it was because of the goats that worked there. They were threatend by my "being". I am not one to take the speck out of there eye, i only worked there for 5 days.
What was the phyc ward like?
It was filled with people in higgledy piggledy clothes and was mostly suffering free. I saw them with those liver dish's though, others were. I was doctors pet. All the in patients were people I was familiar with, regulars. I cannot explain the phyc ward but it decays people and it is plastic. It sends your mind off too.
25/7/2010 Tuesday
Having trouble with the job. Everybody knows it so i may as well tell you. The strangest thing happened today a female stuck her tongue out at me waitin' in a que. Did you know that when the male is in a submissive mode he gets aggressive with the build up of the moon but when he takes the dominant role (and he has male friends around him) he takes the ebb tide as a sign he has missed out and gets frustrated and jealose. Guess what baby, I am just waiting to embarrass you in front of all your friends.
23/7/10
Rello. I have been tired lately. Starting the new job. Life is joyful though. I have ecentricities. The other night I watched saw it kept me up all night. I got into this real nasty mode, I have been watching gunters er too. I want them to cut up a wombat.
The world keeps turning, spinning and turning, you could never understand that on as many levels as me but it grinds at different decabells.
What else? The job is ok. I suppose putting up with those people is a little frustrating. But it is also a laugh, it is funny. Thats what dad was doing when he went to wurk. anyway LG.
cya
Jante
The world keeps turning, spinning and turning, you could never understand that on as many levels as me but it grinds at different decabells.
What else? The job is ok. I suppose putting up with those people is a little frustrating. But it is also a laugh, it is funny. Thats what dad was doing when he went to wurk. anyway LG.
cya
Jante
22/7/10
Union day at work today.
Otherwise the guy I am offsider for seems to be a good bloke. It is a strage place because they are extreemly accepting of each other not like our crew who backstabs. Hrrrm but it is different though there you could flownder and your on your own.
Other than sleep patterns I have looked up stress on the internet. Symptoms of stress, dry mouth, tence muscles in your back, tired eyes, frustration, and reduced mental function. The cures for stress, sleep right, stretching, deep breaths, and mental stimulation, and definately avoiding the stress.
Hrrrm my tricks are codiene 5mg and 250mg at bedtime and then the other half at midnight when you wake up. Note to self: fast acting and fast digested bedtime pill so you can drop off. A blalaclava that stimulates the skin on the scalp via remote profile statue pluged into a computer for couples whome are in a distance relationship. Voice recognition typed txting ph.s.
Otherwise words of wisdom, look after no. 1
Otherwise the guy I am offsider for seems to be a good bloke. It is a strage place because they are extreemly accepting of each other not like our crew who backstabs. Hrrrm but it is different though there you could flownder and your on your own.
Other than sleep patterns I have looked up stress on the internet. Symptoms of stress, dry mouth, tence muscles in your back, tired eyes, frustration, and reduced mental function. The cures for stress, sleep right, stretching, deep breaths, and mental stimulation, and definately avoiding the stress.
Hrrrm my tricks are codiene 5mg and 250mg at bedtime and then the other half at midnight when you wake up. Note to self: fast acting and fast digested bedtime pill so you can drop off. A blalaclava that stimulates the skin on the scalp via remote profile statue pluged into a computer for couples whome are in a distance relationship. Voice recognition typed txting ph.s.
Otherwise words of wisdom, look after no. 1
16/7/10
16/7/10
Hrrm there is a few things I want I want one of those things that you can tape TV with I suppose I need some speakers and a digital antenay as well. I uploaded the blog! It is empowering and destablising as well to know you are a little bit famous. I saw a girl in a car today, she was a real hottie. Dyed brown hair, full figure, well groomed to the max. Her car had d.c plates, that means shes a diplomat. She looked in her mirror too. I have this thing that, when i walk into a room, i plant seeds of doubt into every womans head thats in that room. :o)
I wish this would never end. I have had bad times. Really bad times. Purposeless times, and painful times. But now, just being happy is something I have to be grateful for right now. I dunno transience is one of the things I really have diffoculty with, I do not have much experience with long term, short term transience. I have always dropped back into vice before I could experience good wads of transience. And bloody hell the transience is endless in life.
But I have to get power. You have to accept that you need security to maintain the flow a productive man has. So that is my fate I have to stop being led by my decisions that outcomes are always the right thing and give in that I have to protect no 1. But I will compromise.
For the young ones, lol, find what you want to do and do it.
Hrrm there is a few things I want I want one of those things that you can tape TV with I suppose I need some speakers and a digital antenay as well. I uploaded the blog! It is empowering and destablising as well to know you are a little bit famous. I saw a girl in a car today, she was a real hottie. Dyed brown hair, full figure, well groomed to the max. Her car had d.c plates, that means shes a diplomat. She looked in her mirror too. I have this thing that, when i walk into a room, i plant seeds of doubt into every womans head thats in that room. :o)
I wish this would never end. I have had bad times. Really bad times. Purposeless times, and painful times. But now, just being happy is something I have to be grateful for right now. I dunno transience is one of the things I really have diffoculty with, I do not have much experience with long term, short term transience. I have always dropped back into vice before I could experience good wads of transience. And bloody hell the transience is endless in life.
But I have to get power. You have to accept that you need security to maintain the flow a productive man has. So that is my fate I have to stop being led by my decisions that outcomes are always the right thing and give in that I have to protect no 1. But I will compromise.
For the young ones, lol, find what you want to do and do it.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
14/7/10 (Wednesday morning) 11
Twas payday yesterday. Quite a rough day.
I watched some videos last fortnight. But nothing note worthy. A movie called Circle, about muslim girls, one about a virgin male meeting a blind female (could have been good but my concertration faltered). Queen margot which was crap, couldn't understand it, too long. It was all a mixture of characters getting murdered, characters sleeping with each other, and men having "meetings" about political stuff, n wars.
Rough times lately. I don't quite feel the same after being poisoned. I aren't in good condition. My scalp is itchy. I have some zits on my forhead and my colour is lost. This rainy weather doesn't help. This shit got around didn't it... there is a city in Iceland where suicide rates are the highest. It is because they don't have many daylight hours in Iceland and it is always overcaste and the dreary dark days make people depressed. It is scientificly proven the dark makes you depressed. The bridge with the most people jumping off it is in iceland too.
Oh yeah and what is with that thing about if you save a dollar a day every day until you die you will be a millionare before you die. It isn't true. I did the maths 375 * 1 * 70 = roughly 25000 bucks. So how does this work. I feel horrible. But some nice old person told me this story when I was a smartarse kid. He, she said, I think it was a he, you save a dollar a day, each day, for the rest of your life etc etc. And I said, up at the person, that can't be right... I will run and get my caculator. So I come back with my calculator and do the maths 375 times 70. n' I am like there must be something wrong, am I missing something....... because I aren't that good at maths. So I suppose I go around the room asking aw is this right. And then I am like "YOUR WRONG!" and then the nice person who was telling me a story said... "ahhh, if it is properly invested" and i am sayin' "pah what the hell kind of investment's it gonna be at 12 percent compounding anually". I don't think it is possible... but 70 years is a long time for stuff to happen and you make interest on interest (but still). You'd need to times your money by 40....
Words of wisdom; take your oppotunities and make oppotunities but takin' is the hard thing.
I watched some videos last fortnight. But nothing note worthy. A movie called Circle, about muslim girls, one about a virgin male meeting a blind female (could have been good but my concertration faltered). Queen margot which was crap, couldn't understand it, too long. It was all a mixture of characters getting murdered, characters sleeping with each other, and men having "meetings" about political stuff, n wars.
Rough times lately. I don't quite feel the same after being poisoned. I aren't in good condition. My scalp is itchy. I have some zits on my forhead and my colour is lost. This rainy weather doesn't help. This shit got around didn't it... there is a city in Iceland where suicide rates are the highest. It is because they don't have many daylight hours in Iceland and it is always overcaste and the dreary dark days make people depressed. It is scientificly proven the dark makes you depressed. The bridge with the most people jumping off it is in iceland too.
Oh yeah and what is with that thing about if you save a dollar a day every day until you die you will be a millionare before you die. It isn't true. I did the maths 375 * 1 * 70 = roughly 25000 bucks. So how does this work. I feel horrible. But some nice old person told me this story when I was a smartarse kid. He, she said, I think it was a he, you save a dollar a day, each day, for the rest of your life etc etc. And I said, up at the person, that can't be right... I will run and get my caculator. So I come back with my calculator and do the maths 375 times 70. n' I am like there must be something wrong, am I missing something....... because I aren't that good at maths. So I suppose I go around the room asking aw is this right. And then I am like "YOUR WRONG!" and then the nice person who was telling me a story said... "ahhh, if it is properly invested" and i am sayin' "pah what the hell kind of investment's it gonna be at 12 percent compounding anually". I don't think it is possible... but 70 years is a long time for stuff to happen and you make interest on interest (but still). You'd need to times your money by 40....
Words of wisdom; take your oppotunities and make oppotunities but takin' is the hard thing.
12/7/10 (monday morning) 10
I guess you are wondering by now why this is called blog of a dog. Well I will let you in. I am a dog. I am a stray that uses those terminals over at the shopping centre in the middle of the night to enter blog entries. Nar I'm not, I am human and I forgot my hook plus every other tecnique I have ever learned. Learning would be easy if everything new I learned didn't push something else out.
Oh well, life is happy at the moment. In the last two days I have been poisened with corn starch and corn maltidextron. First time it was in chicken stock that i got and then it twas in bloody canned soup but on the label they called it maize. WTF why did they call corn maize. It just is irritating, you know, it is like, when will I stop slipping up and never eat a food I am intollerant to again.
Tommorow week, I start the new job. I will continue this blog. That's 'aw for today.........................
Oh well, life is happy at the moment. In the last two days I have been poisened with corn starch and corn maltidextron. First time it was in chicken stock that i got and then it twas in bloody canned soup but on the label they called it maize. WTF why did they call corn maize. It just is irritating, you know, it is like, when will I stop slipping up and never eat a food I am intollerant to again.
Tommorow week, I start the new job. I will continue this blog. That's 'aw for today.........................
11/7/10 (Sunday morning) 9
I conciously decided to have a break from blogging for awhile. So here i am 4 days later with a consise blog. Gee I got something durring the day yesterday. The meek shall inherit the earth. I never got it. I realised he ment its the ones who are in power that are meek because they just aimed not to be noticed. I am very happy lately. I have come up with some ideas. One is the cafe near the place where I live is obviously struggling to keep afloat. I was thinking of giving them a hand by educating the fools? round here. Its run by a greek lady. She cooks authentic mosaka. Why don't they support the local cafe. Second is grafitti, there is lots around here. I walk past... the drains in Woden. I know how its done. I wont get around to doing any anyway. Also it would be horrible. Touch sometimes and touch nothing... well i have been getting grandios about doing grafitti... i wont mention the crap i wanted to write (better in my mind). Service the bitch.
Finally I have started sleep hygiene because starting work got me thinking about it. I printed off the sleep hygiene form off the internet and I have been obeying it. I don't eat before bed time now and i do not exercise. I started getting up at 5.30 but it was still dark (creepy) so now I am getting up at 6.15. I am very happy.
Finally I have started sleep hygiene because starting work got me thinking about it. I printed off the sleep hygiene form off the internet and I have been obeying it. I don't eat before bed time now and i do not exercise. I started getting up at 5.30 but it was still dark (creepy) so now I am getting up at 6.15. I am very happy.
6/6/10 (tuesday) 8
Let me tell you a little bit. I have reached the point of one week into my check and I have spent the whole thing. All i have is tucker to feed my body. Often I do get ill on the last days of my payday. I suppose it is deliberate. I sort of believe a human has to go through a little bit of pain. It is a mans needs. I dunno, i am trying to figure out wether it is wrong to get your needs from purchasing stuff. I mean am i getting off on the exchange between myself and the checkout girl or am i feeling one with a crowed. The latter is the only acceptable one.
I cannot overcome this separation of men from woman. If i turn out to get a wife. Will I be able to centre agian. I know the truth. When you delve into mistake, you get a habit, or maybe you need that sin, and the only way to return is stick so close to the line that you don't go wayward. You know how they say you had a phycotic episode well each time you venture from the line you can feel habit or need of porn, sadism, dating sites, perving for example well each episode you can feel yourself, the desire, overcome you and you think... it'll rise again. That is why we sleep when we are inflated in the head.
I know this because i have smoked and drunk and took drugs and when you do that you just say indulge, use your vices. But I re-centred. Started using my knowledge to live a healthy fun, fun fun fun lifestyle. And I know for sure that now, eating the forbidden fruit in excess, smoking ciggarettes is nothing compared to being the majoritory, healthy productive ppl, and also having your needs met. You have issues with your needs if you drop out and come back....................
I know why the burka is there. Its because the girls have the power, here. They don't dress modest and they have found a neesh worshiping the idol (fernwood etc). But I shouldn't speak to soon, hey. Ads orrientate our lives individually in separate ways. Anyway don't let this discourage you.... the best advise, is "start doing stuff, if you are seen as doing something similar to her interests, she will be attracted.
I need to centre and stay in maximum social health. Fuck i must have don't some stuff wrong because I am saturated with soles who lend a hand and walk together. And still my dick takes over heaps and my minds desire, and that means I am misinformed about my needs. I need another key.
I cannot overcome this separation of men from woman. If i turn out to get a wife. Will I be able to centre agian. I know the truth. When you delve into mistake, you get a habit, or maybe you need that sin, and the only way to return is stick so close to the line that you don't go wayward. You know how they say you had a phycotic episode well each time you venture from the line you can feel habit or need of porn, sadism, dating sites, perving for example well each episode you can feel yourself, the desire, overcome you and you think... it'll rise again. That is why we sleep when we are inflated in the head.
I know this because i have smoked and drunk and took drugs and when you do that you just say indulge, use your vices. But I re-centred. Started using my knowledge to live a healthy fun, fun fun fun lifestyle. And I know for sure that now, eating the forbidden fruit in excess, smoking ciggarettes is nothing compared to being the majoritory, healthy productive ppl, and also having your needs met. You have issues with your needs if you drop out and come back....................
I know why the burka is there. Its because the girls have the power, here. They don't dress modest and they have found a neesh worshiping the idol (fernwood etc). But I shouldn't speak to soon, hey. Ads orrientate our lives individually in separate ways. Anyway don't let this discourage you.... the best advise, is "start doing stuff, if you are seen as doing something similar to her interests, she will be attracted.
I need to centre and stay in maximum social health. Fuck i must have don't some stuff wrong because I am saturated with soles who lend a hand and walk together. And still my dick takes over heaps and my minds desire, and that means I am misinformed about my needs. I need another key.
5/6/2010 (monday) 7
Excellent day today. Has anyone seen gunthers ER, good show that. I do not believe in blood donation and organ donorship so I suppose i will give my body to the ANU. I know exactly what it is like when they do a prac. So it's cool.
I noticed how dogs walk today. Speaking of education. I may have to observe them. I have learnt cool tricks off animals. I got a nifty strutt another thing that adds to your swagger is short stories... but i stopped reading them (they have old fashioned vocablary etc.).
Very good day today. Brrrrrr i suppose i will do a review.
Another thing, for the young, or a good reinforcement for the young (your young, fathers) saying; each thing in its own time.
The Violin (Review)
This movie was quality. Desire levels: high. The old man, a nice bloke but blind of wrong... like the people of simple people, tribes ppl. He is adventuresome and keeps going into his captive city (the one he used to live in b4 mexican soldiers took it). He sneaks ammo to the rebels whome are just on the outskirts of town.
His son is part of the rebels.
But he shouldn't risk his life and he is a fool for honer and his son is ashamed and wishes his father to keep out of the town and the risk. The old man, old wrinkled and wise but not wriley and sly (due to his innocence) is willing to die, facing the gun, than even be known to batray his village. The suspence is kept by this oldmans recklessness, wandering through a dangerous warzone - but sweet innocence guiding his way. It is one of those slow movies. You know the ones. The ones that are of primative times and keep you hanging on by the thread of interest (but never losing grip). You have to see it. 5 out of 5.
So there you go folks. By the way. I have the job. I start on the twentieth... so keep an eye out to see if things change. My outlook. My thought. n' headspace. Peace .........................
I noticed how dogs walk today. Speaking of education. I may have to observe them. I have learnt cool tricks off animals. I got a nifty strutt another thing that adds to your swagger is short stories... but i stopped reading them (they have old fashioned vocablary etc.).
Very good day today. Brrrrrr i suppose i will do a review.
Another thing, for the young, or a good reinforcement for the young (your young, fathers) saying; each thing in its own time.
The Violin (Review)
This movie was quality. Desire levels: high. The old man, a nice bloke but blind of wrong... like the people of simple people, tribes ppl. He is adventuresome and keeps going into his captive city (the one he used to live in b4 mexican soldiers took it). He sneaks ammo to the rebels whome are just on the outskirts of town.
His son is part of the rebels.
But he shouldn't risk his life and he is a fool for honer and his son is ashamed and wishes his father to keep out of the town and the risk. The old man, old wrinkled and wise but not wriley and sly (due to his innocence) is willing to die, facing the gun, than even be known to batray his village. The suspence is kept by this oldmans recklessness, wandering through a dangerous warzone - but sweet innocence guiding his way. It is one of those slow movies. You know the ones. The ones that are of primative times and keep you hanging on by the thread of interest (but never losing grip). You have to see it. 5 out of 5.
So there you go folks. By the way. I have the job. I start on the twentieth... so keep an eye out to see if things change. My outlook. My thought. n' headspace. Peace .........................
4/6/10 6
I desire you but all you become is desire. And that is, hatred.
I went camping with my mistress. I love her.
Camping is good. I don't like the hum in the city it brings me misery and I love you for getting me away from that.
Ok, three days i went camping for. Each night was spent in my misteresses combi van.
I have three foreign movies to review. Each good. Sorry I didnit make any entrys to my blog. I didn't inclued a travel diary.
Brrrr. I have no lesson for the young ones this time. See you tomorrow lol....... :o).
I went camping with my mistress. I love her.
Camping is good. I don't like the hum in the city it brings me misery and I love you for getting me away from that.
Ok, three days i went camping for. Each night was spent in my misteresses combi van.
I have three foreign movies to review. Each good. Sorry I didnit make any entrys to my blog. I didn't inclued a travel diary.
Brrrr. I have no lesson for the young ones this time. See you tomorrow lol....... :o).
29/6/2010 (Tuesday) 5
I hope you watch some of these movies. Movies I have been reviewing, otherwise there is no purpose. It is a full moon tonight (oh well roughly..) do lunatics come out on full moons who knows. I wonder if the moon effects me. I wonder if it even effects young males.
Lately I have been having heaps of trouble sleeping. I wake up in the wee hours feeling like I have broken a huge gap between consiousness and deep sleep. Like my system has been shocked. It is a touch of insomnia. Insomnia sux because those hours around 4 in the morning when it is dark are the worst to kill time in. Also it makes you feel like you are going insane, or are insane, or getting close to insane.
Today was payday. I will explain payday for a doll bludger to you. You can never tell wether payday is good or bad. Good for your happyness or bad for your happyness. You cruise around owning the place. You buy small items eg. a CD you wanted, some speakers for electronics, a counter meal at the pub, txting credit (to txt my b/f/f and mistress), a tank of fuel for the maroon old bomb, DVD's at video 2000 in phillip. You get by with books and clothes... my friend has gotten me dressed well too. The main thing is groceries and debts.
My diet has evolved and changes all the time sometimes I live off chocolate cake and frozen food, when you live like this you get sugary yougurt and bannanas and chock muffins to have as a treat on payday and your staple throughout the week is frozen fish and frozen winter harvest veg. I used to think carbs was the go rice, weetbix, pasta, tinned tuna, bread, eggs and bacon, that was when i first left home. It was good at the start i mean i could barely feed myself - when i first left home (and my mother). I sapped off institutions (refuges, asylums, jails) and free food and bludged off mum. Then I ate carbs, i could burn them then and thought lean was kewl and energy food was the way to go for long periods without having to run off to bakers delight. I eat fresh soups and cassarolls and turkish bread with peanut butter or cheese or a pizza made of capsicum grilled cheese and nann bread. I owe this to the ease of grocery shopping and discovering recipe books :o).
Anyway that is enough for now. Enjoy the internet and bear with this blog. I may be able to learn better techniques and express my interests better by the end. I plan to stop blogging if it ever becomes a bad thing.
Lately I have been having heaps of trouble sleeping. I wake up in the wee hours feeling like I have broken a huge gap between consiousness and deep sleep. Like my system has been shocked. It is a touch of insomnia. Insomnia sux because those hours around 4 in the morning when it is dark are the worst to kill time in. Also it makes you feel like you are going insane, or are insane, or getting close to insane.
Today was payday. I will explain payday for a doll bludger to you. You can never tell wether payday is good or bad. Good for your happyness or bad for your happyness. You cruise around owning the place. You buy small items eg. a CD you wanted, some speakers for electronics, a counter meal at the pub, txting credit (to txt my b/f/f and mistress), a tank of fuel for the maroon old bomb, DVD's at video 2000 in phillip. You get by with books and clothes... my friend has gotten me dressed well too. The main thing is groceries and debts.
My diet has evolved and changes all the time sometimes I live off chocolate cake and frozen food, when you live like this you get sugary yougurt and bannanas and chock muffins to have as a treat on payday and your staple throughout the week is frozen fish and frozen winter harvest veg. I used to think carbs was the go rice, weetbix, pasta, tinned tuna, bread, eggs and bacon, that was when i first left home. It was good at the start i mean i could barely feed myself - when i first left home (and my mother). I sapped off institutions (refuges, asylums, jails) and free food and bludged off mum. Then I ate carbs, i could burn them then and thought lean was kewl and energy food was the way to go for long periods without having to run off to bakers delight. I eat fresh soups and cassarolls and turkish bread with peanut butter or cheese or a pizza made of capsicum grilled cheese and nann bread. I owe this to the ease of grocery shopping and discovering recipe books :o).
Anyway that is enough for now. Enjoy the internet and bear with this blog. I may be able to learn better techniques and express my interests better by the end. I plan to stop blogging if it ever becomes a bad thing.
28/6/10 (Monday evening) 4
28/6/10 (Monday evening) 4
See what I done. I missed a day and then I did one (blog) in the morning today and one at night. Smart. I call that lateral thinking. An old joke my father came up with after i went to the ADD doctor. I got ADD not ADHD meaning I am a little blase about everything.
I finished that movie. I have to do a review after saying that (above). A tip to the youngsters: Make a cool habit of something, you should do it strait away and then when you get the habit it doesn't seem so bad and parodoxical. OK, one review coming right up.
Movie Name: La Sconosciuta (The unknown woman)
For nudity this movie gets an A. It was a rather disturbing movie. The lady was thirty, she had 11 children, all to men she slept with as a prostitute. The last child is the one she feels she has to meet to feel her need of sorrow and love of her girl are met. She feels this way because it was her last child and the father was a boyfriend (someone she really loved). She worked at the foster perants as a cleaner to be close to her daughter. Are but the sex trade guy is after her... she has some of his money... it compounds into thrilling climax filled with a touching moment the touching moment got a 3 for effectiveness. This movie was overrated but it wasn't hated like some of the movies I watch. I recomend it after you've watched the movies i rave about. :o)
Movie Name: Travelers and magicitions
This is an increadable movie about a traveling troop traveling the moutains of the hymalayers. Sexy shit in this movie. I wanted to send it to my unrequited teenage love whos married now. This uptight smoking intellectual type wants to get to america because in america he can tenfold his money earnt. Aaaaarr theres an apple grower and a monk and a paper maker and his daughter in the troop. The girls are hot in this movie and you get to see really lovely water running down the back shower scenes. Anyway the monk tells a story which has a cool Acid popping breaking outta the environment, mind revealing/ phycodelic thing where the charactor trips on a special formular of tea (spiked) and has a daylight hallusination of being responsible for two others deaths (one being a female he is in a relationship with). This movie is a story within a story within a story and has a cleaver end which almost caused as much desire as the hottie in the shower. It is about love, lossing love, blindness and stupidity and being greatfull with what you've got. It gets 5 stars.
Movie Name: Marie and her two lovers
It is embarrising to say but i liked this movie. It was sacreligious but i felt the directing was good. Because I loved every character. They were cute. That is all i can say (i can't explain it). The guy was cool, his wife was in need of some disipline (jokes, jokes) but i liked her, and the daughter was hot (i love a chick with beliefs... it makes her available xxx). That is exactly why i liked the movie, it was believable they were exeptional characters and not once did they say anything that didn't seem wise like they were indiginous and a long lived people... etc etc. This movie gets a Four. The end was crap. And its embarrasing.
Ok i wrote three reviews. See kids, how a habit works. cya
See what I done. I missed a day and then I did one (blog) in the morning today and one at night. Smart. I call that lateral thinking. An old joke my father came up with after i went to the ADD doctor. I got ADD not ADHD meaning I am a little blase about everything.
I finished that movie. I have to do a review after saying that (above). A tip to the youngsters: Make a cool habit of something, you should do it strait away and then when you get the habit it doesn't seem so bad and parodoxical. OK, one review coming right up.
Movie Name: La Sconosciuta (The unknown woman)
For nudity this movie gets an A. It was a rather disturbing movie. The lady was thirty, she had 11 children, all to men she slept with as a prostitute. The last child is the one she feels she has to meet to feel her need of sorrow and love of her girl are met. She feels this way because it was her last child and the father was a boyfriend (someone she really loved). She worked at the foster perants as a cleaner to be close to her daughter. Are but the sex trade guy is after her... she has some of his money... it compounds into thrilling climax filled with a touching moment the touching moment got a 3 for effectiveness. This movie was overrated but it wasn't hated like some of the movies I watch. I recomend it after you've watched the movies i rave about. :o)
Movie Name: Travelers and magicitions
This is an increadable movie about a traveling troop traveling the moutains of the hymalayers. Sexy shit in this movie. I wanted to send it to my unrequited teenage love whos married now. This uptight smoking intellectual type wants to get to america because in america he can tenfold his money earnt. Aaaaarr theres an apple grower and a monk and a paper maker and his daughter in the troop. The girls are hot in this movie and you get to see really lovely water running down the back shower scenes. Anyway the monk tells a story which has a cool Acid popping breaking outta the environment, mind revealing/ phycodelic thing where the charactor trips on a special formular of tea (spiked) and has a daylight hallusination of being responsible for two others deaths (one being a female he is in a relationship with). This movie is a story within a story within a story and has a cleaver end which almost caused as much desire as the hottie in the shower. It is about love, lossing love, blindness and stupidity and being greatfull with what you've got. It gets 5 stars.
Movie Name: Marie and her two lovers
It is embarrising to say but i liked this movie. It was sacreligious but i felt the directing was good. Because I loved every character. They were cute. That is all i can say (i can't explain it). The guy was cool, his wife was in need of some disipline (jokes, jokes) but i liked her, and the daughter was hot (i love a chick with beliefs... it makes her available xxx). That is exactly why i liked the movie, it was believable they were exeptional characters and not once did they say anything that didn't seem wise like they were indiginous and a long lived people... etc etc. This movie gets a Four. The end was crap. And its embarrasing.
Ok i wrote three reviews. See kids, how a habit works. cya
28/6/10 (Monday) 3
Tis morning time now. Tis a fine day. Going to watch some foreign movies now. This one i am gonna watch (is yay R18+) but about a woman whome is sort of undercover looking after a house pretending to be poor and needing to clean for a living. In actual fact she has a huge roll of cash and is spying on her employers. She keeps having these flashbacks to her past, where she was a sex slave or something and seemed to get into altercations involving rough sex and these flashbacks are apparently going to reveal her past according to the blurb. hrrrm I wonder why she has these flashbacks of being mistreated.... I wonder what sex racket or institution made her have a past so painful that she has flashbacks regularly..... these questions and many more answered next blog entry, till then adios hombres.
26/6/10 (Saturday) 2
Lady Gaga is an entity. The more people you can get to think about you as a thinking human being the greater the entity you are. People realise she has a thought process therefore people are curious about her, and will do things for her. She seems on an accessable level, that is why i like her. Power is lost when you are seen as a doctor who doesn't have a thought process. You will meet the doctors that are within a institution, who don't do anything except question you with a rutine set of questions. Nazi gaurds were as pained as the jews about the institution created by Hitler. They had the same feelings of worthlessness and low self esteam that the interregatee had, just better shelter and food and a group of organised people (maybe), but they didn't have needs (fundemental) met.
I haven't been happy lately. It could be because i have no suprises in life. It could be transical. The forward days will be an experiment (I am an experiment :o( ... ) but they will show if it is possible to just add a need and wellbeing to be returned. It seems like my sleep isn't satisfactory, like chemicals are eating at my sleep, waking up at all times.... maybe gaining employment will make me work until i feel tired. My idea is I am over stimulated but underworked.
Pray for me.....
I haven't been happy lately. It could be because i have no suprises in life. It could be transical. The forward days will be an experiment (I am an experiment :o( ... ) but they will show if it is possible to just add a need and wellbeing to be returned. It seems like my sleep isn't satisfactory, like chemicals are eating at my sleep, waking up at all times.... maybe gaining employment will make me work until i feel tired. My idea is I am over stimulated but underworked.
Pray for me.....
25/6/2010 (Friday) 1
The things that i am interested in right now are; Lady Gaga, mediterainian food, foreign movies, vampires, and Dolly magazine. I want to get a raincoat so i can walk in the rain... it is raining tonight. I want to get into... whats the science magazine called? ... maybe (science illistrated).
I have read about writing a blog, in Dolly, that you should never bad mouth noone, because when you bad mouth someone... say i didn't like Julia Gillard getting the prime ministership, it sounds crap and teeny if you bad mouth her. I aren't teeny.
Soon man, sooooooooooooon I get a job. I thought it was four years but it is more than five years, i have discovered that i have been out of work. Let me explain this feeling. You are nothing... you do things at different times than everyone else, if everyone is walking in one direction, you are walking in another.
You drive to the video store, there is noone there, after all it is eleven in the morning. This happens ninty percent of the time, noone there 'cept this curious video store attendent (the select few intellegent, pretty, and headstuckon juniors... i never had my head stuck on). Anyway you are there 90 percent of the times at 11 in the morning. Your known. You feel the cameras peeled in on you, you get by untill... the other ten percent, there are young couples... envy and...
To any kid out there new in the world. Don't listen to the phyce that goes on these days. You will find someone if you are doing something they like or are seen to them as productive. So get productive. You get stronger by doing it tough by yourself, no inspiration, just a view of this is what should be done, no emotion, just a knowledge. If you can pull something outta your arse... any rank, any ...
Concieve. Believe. Achieve... i know its hard but get strong by doing it.
Ok my next love or time dwittler awayer is foreign movies. see Marie and her two loves and Travellers and Magictions. Idle hands don't do the devils work but after awhile idle hands will make you wish you were doing the devils work. Um i dunno i watch these things. I watch the effort people put in like it was nothing and they fill the days. You do get used to them. I have read some stuff on novel writing which makes me see it as a work of creation not just a entertainment (the person did this!!! this worked, this didn't).
Anyway we will see if we can get this going. This blog. We will see if we can make it funny. We will see if i can really describe my pursiuts. We'll see :o)
I have read about writing a blog, in Dolly, that you should never bad mouth noone, because when you bad mouth someone... say i didn't like Julia Gillard getting the prime ministership, it sounds crap and teeny if you bad mouth her. I aren't teeny.
Soon man, sooooooooooooon I get a job. I thought it was four years but it is more than five years, i have discovered that i have been out of work. Let me explain this feeling. You are nothing... you do things at different times than everyone else, if everyone is walking in one direction, you are walking in another.
You drive to the video store, there is noone there, after all it is eleven in the morning. This happens ninty percent of the time, noone there 'cept this curious video store attendent (the select few intellegent, pretty, and headstuckon juniors... i never had my head stuck on). Anyway you are there 90 percent of the times at 11 in the morning. Your known. You feel the cameras peeled in on you, you get by untill... the other ten percent, there are young couples... envy and...
To any kid out there new in the world. Don't listen to the phyce that goes on these days. You will find someone if you are doing something they like or are seen to them as productive. So get productive. You get stronger by doing it tough by yourself, no inspiration, just a view of this is what should be done, no emotion, just a knowledge. If you can pull something outta your arse... any rank, any ...
Concieve. Believe. Achieve... i know its hard but get strong by doing it.
Ok my next love or time dwittler awayer is foreign movies. see Marie and her two loves and Travellers and Magictions. Idle hands don't do the devils work but after awhile idle hands will make you wish you were doing the devils work. Um i dunno i watch these things. I watch the effort people put in like it was nothing and they fill the days. You do get used to them. I have read some stuff on novel writing which makes me see it as a work of creation not just a entertainment (the person did this!!! this worked, this didn't).
Anyway we will see if we can get this going. This blog. We will see if we can make it funny. We will see if i can really describe my pursiuts. We'll see :o)
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