My book

SHED/Lisa's
We all know this time. I am famous because of it. Driving down Yaldwin Pl pissed with eminem playing full boar in a '69 VW Beetle.

The poor kid. I payed for drinking with the hangovers.

I think I stole blood with the drink - contributed to SIDS or something.

Lisa's
Lisa was a girl I supposively loved that egged me on drinking. I said I loved her one night - to my present embarrassment - when I was shit faced, up to my eye balls, drunk.

Woden
I stayed with Tooey. Tooey found enlightenment sitting in his flat smoking leaf. Teaching me that drugs in moderation - toasted - is better than wiping yourself out. Tooey had little round sores on himself that he said were from taking mushrooms - mushrooms that then grew out of his skin.

Samaritan House
Samaritan House is a mens refuge. A very good one at that.

Havelock
Havelock was my next house of residence. Samaritan house got me a place at Havelock. I smoked plenty of pot and my fragile mind couldn't handle it - I ended up in the phyc ward.

Phycward
FIRST admission to the phyc ward I was filled with all sorts of dellusion. I liked the food sooo much. I thought I had found heaven. A social worker who is a really good wholesome person sent me to housing developement place (a real dump and I think it to this day - well made though!).

Kanangra
This is where I caught hep C or rather where I used needles I got hep C later off a drifter, all the kids that made me go second were clean.

This was so wrong. They were like vampires latching on to me, floating around the unit.

I left needles all over the floor.

Phyc ward
The social worker sent me to grow, a mental health rehabilitation farm, just outside of Sydney in Liverpool NSW.

Grow
Grow was a mental health rehab with two dogs, Toby and Max. I stayed there for what seemed a long time. I didn't wank. I had cold showers. It was a quiet, peaceful life. Too quiet and peaceful for my stamina, so I pissed off.

Drifters pergatory
I ot out from grow with $40 in my hand and $1000 in my bank 'cos the lady, who said - "you don't really want to be here" in a nice way - didn't care about the thousand.

40 bucks wasn't enough to get from liverpool to circular key, then to grandma's, but some nice nice nice lady gave me a note on circular key turnstiles.

G'ma's
I stayed at gma's for 6 months till I could find a job at Living Hardwood floors.

South Creeks Rd
Stayed at group house which closed down and chucked me on the street and I didn't find a new one so Mr Mannasa took me to

Macquarie Hospital.
Macquarie Hospital had three - gradients - three sections, that gave you stages of freedom. They were parkview, Henely and Figtree.

Macquarie Hospital - Parkview
This is like any phycward. You are locked in, there is a courtyard and a nurses station. I must have been there 4 months.

I got acu - phased by a doctor there. I made a huge bang with the barbeeque lid. Aquphase is like full tranquillizer, they use on lions. I was out for two days. For about 5 - 8 years I was like why did the doctor hurt me - what a witch - but now I am glad because I am not getting special treatment and I got the experience. She was probably aware.

They had a gradient system and I hassled and hassled the nurses to let me up in Henely and I got there.

Maquarie Hospital - Henely
The institution helped me. I made it to Henely. Henely had a big grassed area about 50 meters by 10 meters and another 10 meters by 50 m of deck or porch. I spent 5 months there.

"Please can I go to Figtree" I asked the nurses.

The nurses woke you up at 6.30 am and I was doped upto the eyeballs. On an injection and an oral.

Macquarie Hospital - Figtree
They took us shopping and we ate like kings. (the meds increased appitite). We ordered pizza. And it was like a graduation because all our friends from the previous gradients in the hospital ren des vous.

All through this time the black dog of drinking appeared. But it was great times, long necks in the alley.

'Get real' group halfway house
This place was great. Porno galor. I had to cook for myself. I cooked mostly risotto - I lived off Risotto! Which I now know isn't good for you. I filled the days talking with other consumers and walking about.

Yeah I got hooked on a porno DVD. I would be 23 by then. Porn is not mischief it is wicked.

At the end of the 'get real' group house I was booted because I said I aren't taking meds. I told the "I want to see if I am responsible enough, I want to see if I am responsible enough, to be in charge of my own meds. And when they got me off the treatment order I said "No way, I aren't taking them".

I found a offer on a TAFE billboard, $100 p/w rent, it said so I took it. I went to live at Paulies.

Paulies
Pauly was a scoundrel. The house was aspestos. i wrote lots and studied Conservation and Land Mang. cert III. at the Tafe (100 meters away). It was a rest.

The Voodu's
The couple rented out all of their rooms to boarders (cept their own). I was reading the bible and on the page it said 'take the idle and burn it so I go down stairs, get this little wooden figurine and go to the shed where the old couple are. I spray their Idle with oil and try and light it (the man is laughing and the lady is squealing) but the oil is non flamable so I grab an axe and hack at it maybe 4 times until it's head is hacked off.

Not suprisingly that was the end of the Voodu's.

Mums
I caught the greyhound back to my home town, Canberra. Mums like I am not happy about this. I am a pretty big, wolf of a man, so it was pretty demeaning to have to stay at mums. It lasted 2 days anyway.

Things had reached there pinical. I was a virgin I had tried to crash out in an abandoned nursing home next to Paulies. I was smoking some hermaphrodite weed I scored off Pauly (to heal myself), that I had hidden inside a protea flower that was in the vase I got from the nursing home. Twas at its pinical.

PSU - rispirdol visit
I never forget this visit because it hurt. I remember I was half way through this visit on the 6/6/06 so I was 24. I slept about 4 hours of nothing - sleep a night - max and I could feel my brain being fried. It was a four month admission. So harder time, when I got accompanied leave and saw the blue sky, I cried. The devil really didn't want me to meet the girl that took my virginity.

Relationship with Samantha
I remember my discharge. They put me in the lodge @ the Vil. I said it was an old persons home and I am a young man. I aren't going to hide away on rispirdol all my life.

So I went to interum stay accomodation and stayed two days, scared shitless, then I ended up in Samantha's room and after a few visits she jumped on top of me and fucked me three times.

The Vil
It was hard getting 5 dollar food stamps for us to eat. Sam drank. A real job. I got a life site ban from the Vil. It was three, four months I was there.

Kanangra Crt.
I didn't smoke this time. I have quit smoking about four times. It's my thing!

Kanangra wasn't note worthy cept for the sex and the fact we were there 6 months. I discovered - generally - the man (or rather the female eceptionist) can be a real basted.

Allawah
I started smoking again. This was the downfall of the relationship not smoking. Smoking is like this - to the people that never have, carbon monoxide gets in your blood and you feel sick because of it and additionally your blood saturation with oxigen drops maybe 4 % from 100.

Things got bad agian. I did stuff that only a lonely man does, that is chatting and looking for sex on the internet.... And begged the youth center to bail me from the relationship. And I went back to Sam House after all these years.

Sam house
I stayed for three months.

Havelock
I hate these arseholes with a passion. It was havelock housing assosiation that banned me from the Vill. And they took that bloody long to take notice of me filling out 4 page after 4 page form that when I got there I sexually harrased the reseptionist via note....
(it is a issue for streetys, handing out - harsh - life bans {we sleep rough cos of it}).

Sam house
There is great pressure on Sam house because of Havelock housing assosiation. I couldn't hack it for 3 months at Samaritan house so I ended up in the phyc ward with my first - really serious - attempt on my life since maturity. I got discharged into SUSD another mental health group home.

SUSD
These people were really good to me and I only threw it back in there face. I have discovered now. They gave internet and I used it for porn and I also started binge drinking. I should go to AA to make sure I never drink again.

Richmond Fellowship
This was good because the other consumers were really close and it was really cosy there. I bought my own DVD porn that is reasonabley soft and plodded away, somehow surviving smoking ciggarettes on the porch.

Present...
My first housing flat. Non smoking. Keep porn close to aviod jealousy because I broke into Sams dads house because of porn jealosy. Who knows, life is a mystery....

ps. I have my own horrors to deal with but if you as a civilization want to not go through the school of hard knocks, I would make some faith offerings.