There are 77 confirmed cases in the ACT. I've stayed at home almost all weekend. Tomorrow, I will visit a vulnerable friend for a few nights, to leave that relationship at peace. I really am torn about it. We were very close, but she is very hard to deal with, and it hurts a lot to even be with her. Also, I feel like I am too late with girls. This is the door closing... "Too slow, Jan."
I went to Woolworths Mawson during the weekend, and it was disorganised at the least. People all had different views, and I got within 1.5 meters of near everyone. They had sneeze guards up to protect the cashier girls, but no hand sanitiser as you went in. I am not wearing a mask. The masks have to go to the doctors. I am doing my bit by staying at home. I'd like to say I'm doing fruit picking, but obviously that's not in my power, being long-term unemployed, and a liability. I need to study. I need to stay at home. I need to allow the professionals to do their job. If anyone doesn't like it, that's their opinion.
I think people should write a shopping list before they go into the supermarket. I also think it is time for doctors and nurses to have free run of the supermarket on weekends. I hate authority, but that's a reality. At the start, I was going to pay a web designer to make a website, which organises regular people, who are well to deliver groceries to the sick. If a person had had the disease, they were the new people to run the place. I am not a leader. I am a follower. I have no choice anymore. I heard something... "Together, Apart." I joke, but this is hard. I will make mistakes, regarding putting myself and others at risk, but I will learn from them.
I think they should make a channel that just has text affirmations on it. Stuff like, "Thanks for being at home." "77 cases in the ACT." "Make a Shopping List." "If you are sick, don't even go out for Groceries." "If you are Sick and You think it's serious, Contact Here." "If you are lonely, contact here." Ah, and, "Watch DVDs, read a book, listen to the radio, or Lie under the blanket, if you are bored."
That's all I can say right now. Their is change in the air. I can feel it's different, but it isn't that different. The big change is I am not going to uni, I am studying online. In addition, there is fear on the streets. People don't want to get germs. I think it's a mistake that KFC and takeaway are still open, but we need them for the economy. If one cook gets sick, he could pass it on to tens of people. Oh well, I don't know the facts. However, I know I've got sick before off fast food. There was once a crook person working at Stockman's Chips, who gave me a terrible flu. I am ready for whatever comes. I am scared of pneumonia, but I know I should be able to make it through. That's the real test. If I get sick, I have to call Lifeline to check in. I want to give it to 00.000 people.
I have to visit my ex-girlfriend. I said I would. When I have, she is on her own, and the lockdown begins. There is no one to judge this action. I just saw the pictures on the news of people in hospital, without family around them. I can't be the hope in anyone's life, but I've said it. She is very, very difficult. When it's over, all I have to do is listen to her on the phone. Talking on the phone is a blessing and curse. It is a multi faceted way of being idle and also a tool. Now, you look at me from a safe time when the world has recovered, the economy is stable, and could a new world blossom from this? I know the government strives for the status quo, but will people stay home after this, and a new social awakening arise? Or will there be sadness? I fear it.
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